Me and my physique
I always liked to think that I had a sporty lifestyle, when I had anything but. As such, my mind and my body has had a constant war with food. Eat too much, and the mind is satisfied but not the body, eat too little, and the body will be satisfied but not the mind. As such, being 'full' and being 'not hungry' was always two different things for me, which I don't think it should be. As you recall, the revision for exams was a very stressful time for me, and my idea of being 'full' involved substantially more food as my overeating habits kicked in. As such, it took significantly more food for my mind to be satisfied, even if I already passed that threshold for the body. As such I gained significantly more weight by the time graduation hit, and I don't think that I fully recovered from that a year later. My eating habits have changed, and I have lost weight, but I still do not feel that I have reached the same physical fitness as I would have before I moved into Singapore.
In retrospect, a lot of the weight gaining happened in Singapore. Granted my time in Indonesia was during my puberty, where my metabolism spiked, but I do feel that Singapore has significantly more delicious food compared to Indonesia which although may be a good thing for the tastebuds, has done little for my physique. Indonesia has granted me more free time to pursue exercise in my own personal time, especially considering that most of my workouts involved going to the gym, which has evolved from being downstairs to being 45 minutes away. Nevertheless was has happened has happened, and there were many factors in favour of me saying that Indonesia was beneficial to my health which although I am aware of, has done little to change my opinion.
I write this because in my army life I am currently at a point where I am given little physical exercise, and may face punishment for gaining weight for the next few weeks. I am afraid of gaining weight, but more importantly I am scared of losing my fitness, something that I have worked hard for for the past eight months. Furthermore it comes with the fear that I may lose a lot of my physique when I do finish my time in National Service, which although is a given, may cause me to revert back to the days when I was not only fat, but fat and unfit.
I have come to terms that although I will find a way to schedule time for exercise after my army life, I will be unable to upkeep the level of fitness that I have now in exchange for grades, which may not be a bad thing. I suppose that my body has a certain responsibility to fulfill, and it is in this way that we have a trade-off. At that point in time, there will be no punishment for not upkeeping a level of fitness, but much reward for scoring highly in grades, something that I will be unable to do at the moment. At that point I would be exercising SO as to maintain my grades, as exercise would be a good way to keep focused and as such I would often be conducting exercises before attempting hard assignments, but not to score in any PHYSICAL tests like the IPPT, a physical fitness test in the army.
Cheers,
Matthew Tan
In retrospect, a lot of the weight gaining happened in Singapore. Granted my time in Indonesia was during my puberty, where my metabolism spiked, but I do feel that Singapore has significantly more delicious food compared to Indonesia which although may be a good thing for the tastebuds, has done little for my physique. Indonesia has granted me more free time to pursue exercise in my own personal time, especially considering that most of my workouts involved going to the gym, which has evolved from being downstairs to being 45 minutes away. Nevertheless was has happened has happened, and there were many factors in favour of me saying that Indonesia was beneficial to my health which although I am aware of, has done little to change my opinion.
I write this because in my army life I am currently at a point where I am given little physical exercise, and may face punishment for gaining weight for the next few weeks. I am afraid of gaining weight, but more importantly I am scared of losing my fitness, something that I have worked hard for for the past eight months. Furthermore it comes with the fear that I may lose a lot of my physique when I do finish my time in National Service, which although is a given, may cause me to revert back to the days when I was not only fat, but fat and unfit.
I have come to terms that although I will find a way to schedule time for exercise after my army life, I will be unable to upkeep the level of fitness that I have now in exchange for grades, which may not be a bad thing. I suppose that my body has a certain responsibility to fulfill, and it is in this way that we have a trade-off. At that point in time, there will be no punishment for not upkeeping a level of fitness, but much reward for scoring highly in grades, something that I will be unable to do at the moment. At that point I would be exercising SO as to maintain my grades, as exercise would be a good way to keep focused and as such I would often be conducting exercises before attempting hard assignments, but not to score in any PHYSICAL tests like the IPPT, a physical fitness test in the army.
Cheers,
Matthew Tan
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