Mid-teen crisis
If whatever you feel at the second half of your life is called the 'mid-life crisis', I would like to propose the situation that I was in the 'mid-teen crisis'.
I'm nearly 18 and there are very few years left where I can be a teenager, the period of your life which I considered was supposed to be your best. Many people tend to call you a young adult, but you're neither a young child nor are you an adult; you're somewhere in between. As my aunty, a woman who has just took her baby steps into adulthood stated "your teenage years is the period in your life when you have no idea if you should sit at the baby table or sit at the adult table. Either way you would feel awkward" and that is not that far from the truth.
But still I feel like a child in an adult's body, and this becomes especially apparent in your later years as a teenager, thus the 'mid-teen crisis'. Suddenly you are tasked with controlling your own life, something you have never done before. Recently my mother has tasked me with signing up for my exams (something I swore never to do. I have already broken that test) that will help get me into college, getting a driver's license as well as keeping up with my Internal Assessments as well as revising for tests. Many would say "grow up! It's all part of the learning process!" and I do admit it is but there are many things that I wish I could have done and would still do if I got the chance to be a child once more. I always used to say "I'm young, there's time to do whatever I want" but fate likes to keep you busy. It's a way to feel that you have a purpose in life. The more you work, the less time you spend considering the whole point in life, which considering yourself among 7 billion and the 20 billion that lived before you, your contributions are quite small. However people like Einstein, Oppenheimer and Feynman have always given me hope to contribute something that will be remembered far longer than me, and as long as my ideas will live throughout the world, I will never die.
That is the aim of my life, and that should be the aim of everyone's life. However there are many people who are on the same journey as me, who will want to be remembered, whether for the right reasons or not. Nevertheless I will not be one of those people who will vanish in the space of 2 decades. At least that's what I'm trying my best to do.
In hindsight, it is writing this blog post, apart from other factors. that have given me the motivation to study again, and I hope that this has brought me one step closer to adulthood.
In memory of Richard Feynman, pioneer in Quantum ElectroDynamics (May 11, 1918 to Feb 15, 1998)
Cheers,
Matthew Tan
I'm nearly 18 and there are very few years left where I can be a teenager, the period of your life which I considered was supposed to be your best. Many people tend to call you a young adult, but you're neither a young child nor are you an adult; you're somewhere in between. As my aunty, a woman who has just took her baby steps into adulthood stated "your teenage years is the period in your life when you have no idea if you should sit at the baby table or sit at the adult table. Either way you would feel awkward" and that is not that far from the truth.
But still I feel like a child in an adult's body, and this becomes especially apparent in your later years as a teenager, thus the 'mid-teen crisis'. Suddenly you are tasked with controlling your own life, something you have never done before. Recently my mother has tasked me with signing up for my exams (something I swore never to do. I have already broken that test) that will help get me into college, getting a driver's license as well as keeping up with my Internal Assessments as well as revising for tests. Many would say "grow up! It's all part of the learning process!" and I do admit it is but there are many things that I wish I could have done and would still do if I got the chance to be a child once more. I always used to say "I'm young, there's time to do whatever I want" but fate likes to keep you busy. It's a way to feel that you have a purpose in life. The more you work, the less time you spend considering the whole point in life, which considering yourself among 7 billion and the 20 billion that lived before you, your contributions are quite small. However people like Einstein, Oppenheimer and Feynman have always given me hope to contribute something that will be remembered far longer than me, and as long as my ideas will live throughout the world, I will never die.
That is the aim of my life, and that should be the aim of everyone's life. However there are many people who are on the same journey as me, who will want to be remembered, whether for the right reasons or not. Nevertheless I will not be one of those people who will vanish in the space of 2 decades. At least that's what I'm trying my best to do.
In hindsight, it is writing this blog post, apart from other factors. that have given me the motivation to study again, and I hope that this has brought me one step closer to adulthood.
In memory of Richard Feynman, pioneer in Quantum ElectroDynamics (May 11, 1918 to Feb 15, 1998)
Cheers,
Matthew Tan
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